You know, since I was on a trip this weekend, I didn't have time to think about it that much yet.. But I was shocked, still am and will be for quite a while, trust me.
It's my favourite Idol. MY MOST FAVOURITE IDOL.
I was crying and I feel miserable, now I really know how it feels for a favourite Idol to graduate..
I know it will be ok though, I will only be sad for a while I guess..
I love Duu a lot and I want her to do what she wants the most. And that seems to be being an actress. I think she is a great actress.. Yeah, False was one of the best things ever and I can't wait to see her acting in the new musical.. and then I will hopefully see her in some dramas or moveis in the future. She's still young so she can still learn and grow a lot.. she's not even 18 yet. Still, she was in the group for 6 years and it is so nice to have her in Morning Musume. She is so special and she gives the group such quirkiness and happiness. Especially with her fellow 10th gen members.. wow, I didn't think she would be the first one to graduate out of these.. and to think she is graduating before Mizuki and Eripon... I even excpected her to be leader at some point.. even though that may have been impossible anyways. And I kind of didn't see her in the group until like 25.. but maybe until 20.
*sigh* I really have to sort out my feelings, so it's good to write it down here. But I hope I don't sound like a mess to you. I am kind of, but I guess I will be ok, ne.
Well one good thing: at least I got to meet her.
Right, I got to meet her quite a few times for Cheki and for Handshake and I will meet her again next month, maybe even more. I went to two Momusu concerts and will go to a few more and the new Musical. I probably won't be able to go to her graduation concert, because I will be back in germany. But at least I can have some nice memories with her.. I didn't even think I would meet her a few years ago.. she could have already been graduated when I was coming to Japan. So I consider myself to be really lucky!!
I still feel so lonely and sad, but I want to enjoy the rest of the time with her being an Idol..
And then I will be excited for her as an actress!!
Ronja
(Kudo Haruka Oshi)
